Who I Am

I found this over at Live a Charmed Life!  It seems like a lot of fun, so I'm joining in!  Now, I'm off to celebrate our 3rd wedding anniversary!  Yes, our actual anniversary isn't until Monday (May 16th), but since celebrating on a Saturday is a much better idea, Bryan has something planned for today!  I can't wait to find out what it is!

Who I Am

{via Cmae}

I am...Kristen!  I'm 26 years old, celebrating 3 years being married to a wonderful man this Monday, and a stay-at-home wife due to disability.  I am, along with my husband of course, trying to get pregnant with our first baby!



I want...to learn Japanese!  Japan is one of so many different places that I want to travel to--listing them all would take too much time.  I also want to learn Russian.



I have...Rheumatoid Arthritis, which is really sucking right now because of the weather change.



I wish...that I was already pregnant!



I hate...feeling useless and ineffective and helpless. 



I fear...completely screwing up as a mom.  I fear being a burden to others and ending up in a wheel chair.  Oh, and cockroaches.  Definitely cockroaches.



I hear...Roswell!  NetFlix is on and I'm watching Roswell lol.



I search...Google.  I love Google.



I wonder...if I'll be able to make my weight loss goal before I get pregnant and only gain the healthy amount while I'm pregnant.  I wonder if I'll be able to lose the weight quickly after having the baby.

I regret...NOTHING!  Just kidding.  I regret the times that I didn't stand up for myself back in college, but even regretting it, I don't know that I'd go back and change anything.  That might change the way things have turned out, and I wouldn't do that for anything!



I love...Bryan!  And my dogs!  And my family and friends!



I ache...constantly, though the past few days have been worse than normal.  Silly RA and weather changes.



I always...have cold feet.  Not in the metaphorical sense, but in the sense that my feet are always cold!  I think I shall knit some slippers.



I usually...read a lot more than I have been lately.  I blame knitting and NetFlix!  That said I'm rereading one of my favorite book series!



I am not...completely adjusted to being a stay-at-home wife yet, but on days like this, I sure am glad I don't have to limp my achy bones to work!



I dance...in my living room and while cleaning!  And at weddings and when I go out with friends of course.



I sing...poorly lol.  But that doesn't stop me from singing in the car, the shower, around the house!



I never...have doubted God's presence or love for me...even though my belief structure and outlook have changed dramatically in the past decade.



I sometimes...daydream about packing our bags, driving to the airport and getting on a plane with Bryan and just going somewhere tropical--no planning, no budgeting--just going.



I cry...more now than I did when I was younger.  That said, I still HATE crying, especially in front of other people.



I am not always...rational.  Of course, who is?  But I don't always realize I'm not being rational at the time lol.



I lose...my keys and my hairbrush ALL THE TIME!  I swear the things have their own legs and like to walk off.



I am confused...by purposeful ignorance.  I don't understand why people willingly choose to let fear stop them from learning about other cultures and beliefs, and I especially don't understand when they choose to stop learning about their own beliefs.



I need...to take a religious studies class again.  I need to find a way to plug in to our church without feeling suffocated.  I need to clean house before my mother-in-law comes in on Sunday.  I need 4 more Gold Bars in Garden of Time of Facebook lol!

I should...be doing laundry and cleaning right now.  Lol oh well.  Time for that later.