Feeling Fat

I have fallen off the wagon when it comes to my health goals.  I was doing so well too!  Gah.  What happened?  I'll tell you what happened.  I let a couple of illnesses and flares through me completely off my game.  Well, it stops here and now.

I have six to eight weeks before my first bridesmaid dress comes in.  The seamstress ordered what she says was a size above mine so that we'd have extra fabric for alterations.  She ordered a 14, so at least I haven't gone up in dress size--still a 12. 

That said, I want to reach my original short-term goal of 155 by fitting time.  If I can manage my long-term goal of 150, then awesome, but I'll settle for the 155.  I do not know where I stand at the present moment, and I don't want to weigh in because I just ate a very late, quite hefty lunch.  So yes, I am chickenshit.  I will wake up a bit earlier tomorrow and weigh in.  Then we'll see how much damage has been done, and how extensive my damage control measures will need to be.  That said, I have some things I'm implementing right now.

For starters, I am going to try my hand at calorie counting.  Again.  For the fourth or fifth time lol.  I never do manage to stick with it long, but it does let me become more aware of what and how much I'm eating.  So here's my list for today:
Breakfast:  1 pack Quaker Oats Instant Maple Brown Sugar and Cinnamon    160 calories
Midday Snack:  Half a PBJ sandwich  
1 slice of bread    80 calories
1 Tbsp PB           95 calories
1 Tbsp Jelly         50 calories

Lunch  2 servings of chips  300 calories

Subway Orchard Chicken Salad Sandwich  440 calories

So far today, that brings my calorie count up to 1125.  That's a problem, because I haven't even had dinner yet!  The chips were definitely a bad idea.  Argh.  No wonder I've backslid...I've completely stopped paying attention to what I eat. 


So, starting today, I'm remedying that.  Next week, I will pick my workout routine back up.  No school means I have the ability to go work out in the morning as well as the evenings.  I also need to move my methotrexate shot back to Friday.  It'll take three weeks (I have to only move the shot administration back a day at a time), but at the end of it I won't be fighting this nasty nausea on Wednesday (which means I can go back to Weds night water aerobics!).

Well, I feel better with a plan laid out.  Now its time to put my big girl panties back on and take care of business!  Starting with dinner tonight--I shall eat a salad!  Wish me luck!